Saturday, September 6, 2008

Guilt became me. Always guilty, always was. I'm sorry to those I've hurt, but sorry is a word and it is never enough. I regret a lot of things, but I had to kill people off to be with the one I need to be with. This is why I never wanted to give myself away. Because I knew that one day I would have to take it all back. Selfish of me both ways. I know I will never hurt anyone again, though, not like that. I don't even need to promise, I just know it's true, it's a fact. The other part of my life is over, and a new part has begun. But the past is always nipping at your feet. I'm sorry to anyone I've ever met and haven't met. I'm sorry if I looked at you strange in the elevator. I'm sorry if I cut you off on the road. I'm sorry if I didn't want to talk to you. I'm sorry if I broke your heart. I'm sorry if I got in your way. I'm sorry if I was selfish. I'm sorry if you wanted chocolate, and I got you vanilla instead. I'm sorry I threw a flashlight at your head and made you cry. I'm sorry I didn't let you sniff the ground when I was walking you because I didn't want to take a second to stop. I'm sorry I'm human and I'm sorry you're human and I'm sorry we're here on this Earth. But I'm in love, and I hope something this true makes up for even one indiscretion.

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