walk on by

a gradual downfall. indecision in the end becomes decision. before you even realized it. stuck somewhere. people don't wait around. and they shouldn't. life is too short to wait around too long. something's going on, either that or i'm ridiculous, and i can sense it. it's ok. that opens me up to other things. closed doors always open more. but then again i can shun it all. i can leave this place. but to where? to anywhere. sometimes it's so hard to remember that anyone can do anything at any given time. social conventions and expectations and habits keep us to perceive and accept very few options. to let go of it all and accept nothing is to be open to anything...everything. maybe that's why being 'lost' hasn't done much of anything but confuse me. i've got one foot out the door and one foot inside. indecision doesn't do anyone any good. i can understand why people have lost patience and interest with me. completely understandable. and expectable. i'm not worth effort, and that's completely objective and not a pity comment, because i don't put my heart into things.