I miss Carrie too. She is my sister, closest as anyone has or will ever get, and I know that I am hers too. It's hard to see us grow so far apart on the surface when I look at her and I know that some things never change. It's hard to find a place to put your feelings after things have changed. This is hard with Sam too. Where does the past go, once it's all gone? I thought things built up, accumulated. Sometimes things and people just get displaced. I think I'm one of those people.