No matter how far I've come or how much things have seemed to change, I still feel sick about everything. Because I know it's all the same. I just have this nausea in the pit of my stomach that lets me know that things will always be the same. And that everything's just relative. So if I want to feel this way, then this is my reality. But if I don't, it's not. Don't leave it up to me. Don't leave anything up to me.