Monday, February 12, 2007

some sort of reversal

Where I am confused, uncertain, and scared my mother is, too. But, in a good way. She's found someone and it seems right. I hope that it's right. I'm happy for her. If it was meant for me to feel badly while she feels ecstatic, then I do not regret any of it. She needs this more than I do. She deserves this more than I ever will. I don't think I deserve anything anymore.

6 comments:

Krista said...

you deserve stuff!

you deserve vacationing in georgia in late summer!

and i deserve getting to talk to you on messenger sometimes but i'll wait a week from now to really start hounding you.

your life is separate from your mom's - it is possible for you both to be happy at the same time - i bet she'd want it to be that way too.

you deserve happiness as much as the next person - way more than me too =)

you're loved

and missed!

s o l e i l said...

i doooo! Maybe when I get back from Italy, you'll be in georgia! or maybe before...

I'll get on messenger when I'm done with this dumb essay =(

I know it is, but it seems like we switched off. And if that's the case, then I'm glad.. but I know it's not really the case.

Meh I don't think I do. You've gone through a lot, you definitely deserve to be happy more than anyone. I've put people through a lot, that's different and I don't deserve anything for that.

Krista said...

trust me i've put people through tonstonstons too

essay? /perksup

s o l e i l said...

Yeah due tomorrow......-_- bah! philosophy type essay on the mandragola and the nature of love etc....

Krista said...

but... love doesn't exist...

how can you write a paper on that which does not exist?

s o l e i l said...

its a fiction piece :(

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